Thursday, April 07, 2005
once upon a time... there were two friends..... starting off as colleagues...... both were not close to each other..... but as time passed, the friendship blossomed between them.... little boy n little girl both had a affinity for the same things...... cracking lame jokes, watching movies, going to bowl.... little girl reali wanted to keep fit..... and when she knew that little boy goes to the gym regularly, she decided to accompany him on his gym trips..... months passed...... they met up more n more often...... mayb becoz little boy had a good character and was helpful to all in need..... little girl gradually felll for him.... it was not love at first sight but however, based on day by day understanding of him..... from the moment little girl understood things..... he was the first person that reali moved her..... all the others in her life are juz infatuations n mayb for the sake of having someone special in her life for once...... trying out something new...... maybe..... from the past to this point in her life... little girl has grown up tremendously...... no more the impulsive and depressive girl she once was..... little girl fell in love with little boy but litttle boy was oblivious to all the things she did..... but she nvr once did ask for anything in return.... she juz wants to remain purely as frenz.... going out together to have fun.... eating dinner, chatting tilll the wee hours of the morning...... this was the first time she had such a good guy friend..... maybe becoz little girl was not the sort to initaite conversations with guys.... little girl being quite shy in front of guys she does not reali noe.... she reali treasured being frenz with him... n nvr once did she hesitate to let little boy know how much she valued him being there for her..... as good frenz...... she reali had no intention to ruin this friendship by letting litttle boy noe her feelings....... she knew that little boy's ideal life partner was reali out of her limits...... she had nth in her that would make a guy fall for her....... and so the months passed..... soon...... it was going to be little boy's bdae..... little girl wanted to do something for her friend..... something that little boy would rmb her by...... she hoped that he will be happy to see how much effort she had put in to make this simple gift..... it did not take much money but she reali tot of ideas to let him have a happy birthdae.... she did not meant anything by giving that gift..... juz wanted to see his expression when he saw it..... but alas!! wat problems that present has caused..... how much hurt has it brought upon the frenz...... little girl had a strong inclination that little boy was in love with another...... so she silently decided to back out...... she wanted to be there as a fren for him to give him support and she wanted to have him feel happy for the rest of her life......but.... a twist of fate caused little boy to finally accept little girl..... little girl was apprehensive but in the end, she got together with little boy...... her newfound happiness lasted onli a few daes.... little boy had hurt her again.... time n time again llittle girl felt pain, hurt n now betrayal..... she does not wan to voice it out........ she felt trapped...... little girl did not noe wat to do........ little boy wanted to end the relationship wif her.......... she felt miserable...... someone whom she tot she could depend on for the rest of her life was going to be out of her life......... this time..... by ending the relationship, it would also mean ending the friendship they had built up....... inside of little girl, the hurt of losing him as her fren was even more den the hurt of losing him as her other half...... being frenz for this duration has had fond memories implanted....... little girl felt sad...... mainly becoz she reali wants to be back to the past..... how much would she gif to be able to erase all that has happened......... but..... as time heals all wounds..... she will juz have to rely on the support from her family n frenz....... she does not hate little boy..... she has already forgiven him...... love cant be forced...... she juz hopes that in time when the scar of this memory has faded, they would stillll reamin frenz... good frenz till they grow old............. **hope we are frenz like you say you will be..... i dunwan to change our frenship...... i wish u happiness...............**
Sera's SCARED.
5:05 AM
