Sunday, June 26, 2005
its here.... my insomia days are back.... i slpt for onli 3 hours last nite... i should tink the main reason is due to my late nites and early mornings during attachments... and so.... even thou i slpt at 3am last nite.... my body's natural alarm woke me at 6am.... feeling so tired now....the third week of attachments haf ended.... there's onli one week more before we return back to schoool.... feeling apprehensive about the new semester... will i be as slack as the past yr? will i be more hardworking? wat lies in store for me? will i be a good radiographer? in the first place? will i be able to grad with good results? i need something to revitalize me.... to give me the drive to suceed.... i am always so weary.... juz wan to lie down n do nth....well..... cyn told me books by jane green is nice... i wanna go read.... n juz remembered.... seems like i am supposed to be getting the da vinci book.... but so far noone has lent me.... nvm....tot abt him ytd........ mayb coz i went to the usual "mama" dang he likes to go when he ends wrk at nite.... always rmb he likes to order the same old stuff... mee goreng, mutton soup... sighz.... n always wan to walk back home with me to "digest"..... well.... i did walk back home ytd with my fren..... n on the way home i passed by memories........ the bridge where he wanted to throw me in.... where we teased each other.... n regretfully... there was the last place we went before he broke the horrible news to me....still can rmb i gave him this addidas bottle.... tink its the last thing he will receive from me.......... sometimes i wonder..... will we ever be frenz like before? in the first place, are we even frezn now? i contemplate my actions before i reali do them... wat will be going thru his mind when i ask him to go out? wat will be in her mind? i wan to get a new job at a new environment.... i noe i noe.. i haf been saying this for one yr but i am still stuck in cartel... its not easy to find a job nowadaes..... esp when i can wrk on limited daes onli.....todae is SAT.... going out with Denise ltr.... tml is sun! where will i be going? for now i dont haf plans... maybe stay home write rpt.... seems unexciting... wat to do? i am a monotonous person........ old le lahz........ find something for me to do...... heehee....
Sera's SCARED.
4:25 AM
